Angel In The Pit: A Lyrical Response
She's an angel in the pit with her hands in the air screaming, “I don't care, baby! I don't care!”
That lyric speaks to me in so many ways.
Being a survivor of childhood and adult sexual abuse, this song gives me the feeling of freedom and liberation from the pain and the shame that I carried around for so many years.
I hid my pain and shame from the whole world.
That same pain crippled my already fragile wings and kept me in a pit of despair, not ever speaking of the secrets I was forced to keep, in fear of what people may say or feel if they knew the truth; Maybe they wouldn't like me, or they may hurt me... So I kept silent in all the lies!
When I first heard this song on the Blue album, I immediately felt the love start to flow in me. Then, the real healing began; I wasn't the victim anymore. I was a Survivor, a warrior angel, if you will. I started talking, telling others of what I had been through. No more secrets. No more shame.
I started meeting other angels that were in the pit and needed them to know they weren't alone. I was screaming the truth for the first time, and for the first time I felt free! I started to live! I started to talk! NO - I started screaming, “I don't care, baby! I don't care!” Now I hold my head up high, and even higher in the pit, screaming the truth!