The Darkness Inside of Us
The darkness inside of us brings us together. Third Eye Blind is the music that lights the way.
I’ve spent my life feeling slightly out of place, almost like an observer in someone else's story. Then I found Third Eye Blind, some how this band, this person, these lyrics spoke my truths. As time went on, every album spoke something so true about myself. From losing a friend to meth addiction and suicide, to assault, and trying to get the fuck out of a place I didn't fit in.
For two decades, when someone asks who my favorite band is, I say Third Eye Blind. I would say they wrote the soundtrack to my life. To be honest, somehow I thought I was the only one. That magically, Stephan Jenkins had a magic crystal ball that saw into my life, and Brad some how secretly feels my beat. In the past years, I've luckily encountered some amazing people who are as obsessed as me.
During the Dopamine tour, I ran into several old friends at the concert at Marymoor on the Seattle leg of the trip, then met up with friends in London, made some new friends in Manchester, and then had one of the best times of my life at the Wiltern in LA, with some friends that had just moved down there, then shared a huge bonding experience with some random people at the Bumbershoot Festival in Seattle again.
The best part of this, multi-city tour extravaganza, was some of the photos that I took during Bumbershoot, garnered some attention online, from a few different fan groups. Something amazing happened. I found a group of my people. People to walk with, people to cry with, and people to connect with. People to share these unbelievable experiences. One day, someone shared a very personal story on a group I’m no longer a part of, and I reached out to her. She was kind, and as she told me her story, I felt as if I was talking to myself. We shared so much in common, so much pain in our past, and found Third Eye Blind healing that pain.
Overtime, I finally found a project based fan group that I could call home, 3EB Lifestyle. I kept connecting with the wonderful woman who I met earlier, and I've come to know her as the 3EB Lifestyle Expert Maven herself, Liseli. Over the year, there has been much debate on what an EXPERT is. In my quest to understand what an Expert meant to this group of people, I found myself getting to know the other Experts as people. I started connecting with fans all around the world. It was truly a stunning experience, on that I did not expect to happen at all. Third Eye Blind is something I’ve spent the better part of 20 years, living and breathing by myself. Wallowing in, finding joy in, finding empowerment in, and finding healing in. For the most part though, I was still alone.
As I got to know the other amazing people of this group, I started to see a pattern emerging. What was this connection between these people? What drew us undeniably together? They shared their very most personal stories, all with a darkness. Drug addiction, loneliness, suicide, abuse, mental health, sadness, loss, mourning, heartbreak, disappointment, and infidelity. They opened up and shared their darkest stories, unabashed, unashamed, and willing to connect. Even through all the tragedy, these people don't give up, call it will, soundtrack it with Third Eye Blind music, and we continue to survive, we continue to thrive, and we continue to look up. When we fall, we are there for each other. When we rock, we rock with each other.
Darkness inside of us brings us together. Third Eye Blind is the music that lights the way.